V E D A N T

Every time it feels like something good is happening to me and I Start to feel truly happy,It's as if god's Say's.

"Not so fast."

Everything Was Going With The Flow,Kavya Is feeling comfortable with me.

But Past will never leave,no matter how many times I run away.This Past will never leave me.

Just Like Anvi,I don't get her.Is she dumb or playing to look dumb.

Can't she just look at me or can't she just ask me what is going on between me and Kavya.

I told her on the car also but she's to dumb to understand.She thinks our arrangement is real.

How will I tell her that Even I'm fake with her,how will I face her when she will get to know My tuth.My family's truth.

It's not her fault but she can't get in between me and Kavya.

Ok I liked her in Past.

But that doesn't mean I will always like her.

In Present.

Things Change People Change With time.

But she's too innocent for this.

I will tell her,tell her that our past was never that magical that she always used to tell me.

I will tell her that it was all fake,what I was doing was Acting.

But...

A Part of me breaks when I See her deep black eyes.

I Can't And I Will Never Be able to tell her that it was all fake and Acting.

I Can't because in a time I also felt something between us,but for me that was not real.

But how am I suppose to tell her the truth,she will hate me and Cruse Me and I'm Scared fir that.

But it's wrong Kab Tak Sach Chupau Usse Mei.

(For how long I will hide the truth from her)

It feels so wrong and Betrayed.

I feel really bad for her.

But from my side it's not easy for me too,to hurt the most closet person in my life as a friend.

My Parents Were Forcing Me to do this and if I didn't follow them,they will left me.

And how would a 10 yr old kid would have Reacted, Ofcourse I will follow my parents Order.

Because I was scared,Scared Of Loosing My Parents When I Finally Got To Call Someone,Mom And Dad.

My grandmother didn't want me because I was born with an ugly face so they left me in an Orphanage when I was 5 years Old. They Came Back My Mom And Dad,after 3 Yrs. When I was eight.

They Started Behaving Like Nothing Happened they never talked about that three years I've spent without them.So I also never talked about those painful and scary nights.

Cuz I was scared and I thought if I ever ask them about why..why they did to me,i thought they will send me back.

After some years,The two families meet( mine and Anvi's).

Anvi was 9 yrs old and I was 10,She was A Very Talkative and very clumsy girl in childhood,I Never Wanted to be friends with her.

My mom told me to become friends but I denied.my mom was tired of convincing me at last my dad,beat me up and told me to do as they say or else they'll send me back to that Orphanage.

So I did I acted as if i am really happy being with her.I Acted that I cared for her,not everytime cuz most of the times I was attached to Anvi at that time.

This Horrible Past has really fucked my mental health so bad.

But I've had enough,I have to talk to Anvi And Stop This Whatever arrangement Our Families did just for their own Goods.

I'm not that 11yr Old Kid,Scared Vedant.

I'm a Man Now Who Knows What's Wrong Is Wrong And I'll...I Will What? Fight with My Parents?!.

Shaking My Head I Try To Focus On the Road Without Thinking anything.

I gripped the handlebars tighter and leaned forward, feeling the engine’s growl deepen as I pushed it harder. The speed climbed, the road stretching out like a daring invitation, and the air whipped against me in a fierce, intoxicating rush.

I Saw The Map Showing the destination where I was going, Anvi's New House.

I slow gown the speed and parked near her gate.I Saw Her Sitting in the garden, walking around like whole garden area,for a moment I stayed there looking at they Way Her hairs falls on her cheeks.

I start to made my way towards her,i reached near her and cleared My Throat.

She looks up at me.she was lost in her thoughts.

"Sorry to call you at this hour,i..I just needed to clear whatever this is going on"

I said,with my heavy tone.I looked away from her eyes because it's too much.

"What's going on?"

"You don't know?"

I asked her Finally meeting her eyes,she looked confused trying to get what I'm trying to say.

I sighed heavily.

"So you don't know,My Mom and Dad were planning for the engagement.Our engagement."

When I completed.I can see in her eyes that has light up just now. Why?

"Ohhh,So?" She said Normally.

My eyes snap at her casual tone how can she be so calm about this.

"So?? Anvi You're saying so?' "

I asked her as if I heard it wrong.

"Yes,so what Vedant? isn't it good?"

She said Giving me a smile,is she gone insane? Or is she drunk..I don't get her what's with her.

I look away trying to calm myself.

I took some deep breaths and finally talked to Anvi.

"You forgot what I told you in my car? That I love Ka-"

Before the words could escape me, she closed the distance, her fingertip pressing lightly against my lips—a silent command that stole the rest of my sentence and left it trembling in my throat.

"Don't.. don't."

Her Voice Drops when she talked,her eyes full of tears but Pleading me.

"Don't say you love someone else infront of me Vedant,that day I controlled myself but not today ved."

My jaw clenches and my heart tightens as she was pleading.

"It's the truth Anvi, I can't see anyone the Way I see her,please don't make this thing complicated."

I said my voice Softens.

She looked at me with that hurtful eyes and it breaks a Part of me.

"NO! I..I don't believe that please say it you are lying,I know you are teasing me."

Her lips curved in laughter, yet her eyes betrayed her—silent pools where no light danced, only the shadow of a pain too deep to name. The sound was sweet, but beneath it, something fragile trembled, breaking quietly where no one could see.

"Anvi."

I said Holding her arms but she pushed me behind and Stepping Back.Tears rolling down from her cheeks.

"Ok..Ok Go,go to her.I will talk with my dad."

With that she went inside her house,while soobing.I can Hear.I hate myself for hurting het but I can't help it.

All I can say is

I'm sorry.